the really short intro.

life as u all know it, its a game that we play by our own risk. you can never forget whatever you USED to do. it will keep on playing in your own mind. yes, if its bad you dont want to remember it but actually it will chase you till the end. i have a past that i seriously dont really want to make it stay in my mind, make it gone and make the scars to go away.. i used to have a hatred feelings towards MEN. in my mind they are all the same. it was my mum whom make me hate them so much.. my mother was married to 3 men and she told me that all those men are still married to their wife. i presume that they are so stuck up because after marrying with my mother for awhile they divorced my mother and they get back to their first wife. i for all i know is my mother is a flirt, i dont mean to be rude but HELLO there are so many single man in the whole world, still, she wants to get hitched with some other womens husband. and i dont blame her herself, the men that she gets married to are also a d*mb. you have a great wife, your own kids whom adore you and a very great living but still, you want to get married with the other women.

so my moral of the story about my family history is men are untrusted human being that is so stupid. they cant even stand in a crowd for only ONE women, if can 56% of that crowd is most likely their own women. just like a rich kid whom already have everything in this world but still wants more.

and for this is my expose off my deep dark secret. it was when i was in form 3, the year that i really don't want to think about. my friends from other school made a bet for me, they told me to couple up with any of my senior in school and dumped him after he loved me. and i did after 2 months, after that i dumped him. one month after that he wants me back, well, im beginning to like the game that time so, i coupled with him back. he really took care of me and i was in the game too. after a month i broke up with him. some harsh words and blame him for having another girl. oh yes, i made him cry, the satisfaction is really making my day a brighter one. told my friends and the winning money is mine off course. from that day i made the game more successfully in line.. the next year i hooked up with 3 guys at once, some guy from 'sekolah sukan bukit jalil' a biker, some guy from sungai besi and a anak datuk(this guy is a player too). this game goes on till 2 1/2 months. and i let them all go for just a day. just told them that they made me bored. yeah, they did give me some harsh words but i was not really bothered. for that game i got RM350. life was good that time.

with all of the entertainment early of the 2004 i have stopped the game. because of the 2 incident that struck towards my family. in life if we did something wrong and if we didn't noticed it, it will come back to us in a different and really unpleasant way.