im lost at sea

when your living in the dark nest and feel that you have nothing to do... you just feel lost with everything in this world..

i am 23 going to be 24 this year.. the fun fact is i dont know where im headed.. i feel that i need to accomplish my dreams.. and its a lot!!

and the drama in this world.. i dont think i can bare it anymore... i dont know whom my real friends are.. its weird i know but i do love them but i am still afraid to give all my trust towards them.. call me selfish but this is the real fact that im going through.. i dont know whom to talk to anymore..

my own best friend stab me and my closest friends.. saying that im too nice and they can get anything they want from me, the cool fact is they keep on backstabbing each other.. what the hell is that... come on..so now im ignoring them and its a relieve but at the same time i really miss them...

college?? oh my its the craziest semester of all.. ive been draging my self everywhere and now its my exam week.. tomorrow will be my last paper.. i hope i just can rest after.. but i dont think i can...

not with no maids in the house.. tried to ask my brother and sister the find maid for my mum.. my mums been working hard handling the kids.. she should be doing that.. she should rest, shes 70 for crying out loud.. they should have use their intelligent brains to think about it... i did help my mum but i know its not enough...

i just hope it will be a different situation where everyone is doing great and im not this lost...
im just saying,,