i should, should i?

maybe i should let him go... but i like being in his company.. i love how i feel.. i love it.. i love him.. huh.. but i should should i? he already did his part of letting me go.. but actually i didnt... after what he did to me... after what i did to him back until i cant do it anymore.. i still cant let him go.. i still dream about us.. about the 1st day he laugh in class.. the one that captured my heart.. i couldnt see him with other girls.. i did try to move on.. but i still keep on coming back to him.. and i know its not fair for him.. but if i let him go n he goes to another girl i think i cant be that in love anymore.. i will try n pray for his happiness.. i will do that.. but still i will never let him go.. i dont know how to do that.. im not sure i can.. yeah, in front of him i can be a tough girl deep inside.. no one knows..

but i want him to be happy.. i want him to make that silly laugh again.. i want him to.. hurm.. i want him.. im being selfish now right.. i love him till i cant let him go n just want him...

what the hell tasha..!! he already let u go.. he did let u go.. he let me go.. im being insane now..

the way he sleep.. his snore.. his laughter.. his smile.. his caring.. his.. haih... im being stupid now.. how can he be with me again.. im not a good girl.. im just that girl.. and not this girl.. the dirty one.. who broke his heart.. who is so selfish.. who listen to her friends idea.. yeah! such a great friends i have that time... now they just let me suffer too.. damn it.. i better stop this.. better try now right.. i should, should i?

so CONFUSED!!! i love him but i cant be with him.. coz im not that good.. coz he deserve better.. :(