the question now

how can i let him go after he already did let me go..? how can i breath without him? his leaving again, how could i not feel that he left me again, the pain? i dont want him to go far away again.. and im surely will know that if i told him my feelings again im sure he will run away.. but he already think about other girl, he already think about being with another... even dough that time she has a boyfriend... i think im a lunatic moron.. im being stupid arent i.. maybe he already did get over me when he thinks about asking that girl to be with him.. maybe.. he did recently hug me and kiss me.. and ask me to do like we used to.. oh no.. what have i done.. but i do love him for doing all those things to me.. so confused... his going already.. again his going...

and he did remind me that his single.. does that mean that he wants to remind me that he can go to any girls she wants.. why am i being so jealous... am i hurting him... im being insane now right.. love love love.. but throughout this years i do only think about him.. is that bad.. yeah, im the bad one around here...

oh.. i dont know why im wearing this ring.. our initials are so beautiful.. made me cry.. il just wear it tonight.. dont know why it feels so comfortable.. gdnite.. n yeah im crazy i know..