i want to grab it but i cant..

i dont want to be that stupid girl who wants u every 5 seconds in her life.. i dont want to conquer your life and be mad with every girl you be-friend with... i dont want to be so weak that i have to lean on you every time i fall down and cry...

but i do... 

i feel that its not enough for you.. for me to be so independent that you started leaving me alone.. for me to not care so much you stab my heart so painfully that i made myself cry...  

i just want you..

a simple attention that i dont have to do it myself.. understanding about how i feel whenever you post, tweet and message other people.. to let me know how much u still love me like before.. i know u cant live without your friends.. but how about us.. can u live without us.. 

my love.. 

all i want is you to be my boyfriend, lover and future.. i dont want you to tell me that you will try, that really make me sad... i just want you to do it and let me feel it... i dont want to ask anymore the questions that ive been asking lately, i dont want to be uncertain about our relationship.. 

then... 

if its too much to ask then im sorry i bring it up.. i just feel left out since your giving me this cold shoulder attitude... u told me it was just my feeling.. but i dont know.. something is up.. ur acting so strange... so very strange..